why it's been awhile...

Yeah I know, I usually update this blog like every day or two! The past couple of weeks have been crazy and hard. Last Monday we went to the doctor for what was supposed to be my first prenatal appointment - I was about 8 1/2 weeks pregnant - and when my doctor did an ultrasound we weren't able to see a heartbeat. After more blood work and ultrasounds, we found out that it was, in fact, a miscarriage.

While it is definitely one of the hardest things we have had to deal with, I am so grateful for my sweet husband and family and friends who have been so kind. I have a much greater understanding of and sympathy for what so many women go through, and I have gained such a greater love and appreciation for our dear James.

Our weekend consisted of a lot of waiting around for it to happen, a lot of time spent with my two sweet boys, and a lot of movies and shows to get our mind off of things. James now enjoys Gilmore Girls as much as I do (in fact, Jonathan even watched quite a few episodes with me!) and excitedly says, "Girls?!?" and climbs on my lap when I start a new episode. We are also now newly-addicted to Lost, to which I can credit some crazy dreams about bears and things.

It's hard to move on when you are still waiting for a miscarriage to happen, so it was kind of a rough weekend. Monday I went in for a d&c and we were finally able to have some closure, for which we are so grateful. We are just so grateful for all the sweet phone calls and messages and emails and meals, and are now feeling much better and are ready to move on.

I am so glad that I have two amazing boys in my life! They are just wonderful :) Also on the up-side, I am enjoying my new burst of energy and am finally hoping to for real finish getting us all "moved in" - today I even got some family pictures framed and hung up. Stay tuned for pictures of our new home :)